i am one big dumb american… and i realized it just about 20 minutes ago. all day. ALL DAY I’ve been stewing because when I woke up this morning and looked out my window.. all I saw was a huge truck loading up the construction dumpster that’s been sitting in our yard since we’ve moved in. i was happy to see it go.. until it dumped out all the trash and pulled away! they took the dumpster and left the junk?! i frantically called david [bless his heart for the frantic mid-morning calls he gets from me sometimes].. to find out what was up. we assumed our contractor/builder had never paid the bill [which was not the case] and it was repo time for the dumpster. i’ve been frustrated all day… thinking how we did nothing to deserve this. all day the neighbors were coming out of their homes to stare at the large pile. so embarrassed i wanted to tell them it wasn’t our fault. all day, cars slowed and starred. i wanted to paint a sign letting them know it wasn’t me and hoped no one that knew us drove by it. all day. until. i turned on CNN
…and watched.
…pictures.
…devastation.
…piles of trash just like mine..
….miles and miles and miles and miles long.
families’ entire lives are in those piles.. all their family pictures, heirlooms, hard work, pets, pride and even family members are in those piles… big. dumb. ungrateful. american.
God, thank you so much for the little reminders of your grace.. undeserved.. completely unearned.. uninhibited and unselective grace. i don’t deserve. make our hearts heavy for Japan and show us how we can help and show love. your great great love. thank you for loving me even though often i deserve quite the opposite with my ridiculous attitude. oh God thank you for grace.
